2:18am

yes, it's actually early in the morning and i am still online. i can hardly sleep so i decided to make paper works, update my blog, read a novel (the book was with me for 3weeks now, yet i am still on the 13th page), and stare at the monitor for a few minutes and then go back from the very beginning.

things have been very hectic and very confusing for the past 2weeks. overload. i still have to direct our drama in literature, lead a bunch of students for the PE day, make concept papers for the rocked concert and leadrship training, schedule things, busying myself for the student's summit, FYSEC organization, being a First Year Representative and a STUDENT as well. see? that made me look so mature than my age. i hardly have time for myself. i am actually enjoying being busy, but my academic grades are at stake. they are not actually very low, but i have my own goal in the future wherein i need to be always on top of everything. but then, my situation right now is not allowing me to.

i am actually learning a lot from this very experience of mine. i got to be socially aware, manage my time efficiently, value my education even more and having compassion to people and to everything i do. i have learned to speak up and be a real member of the society.

there are still a lot of things that i don't understand, but then experience will be my mentor as i go on with life.

17 :)

i did another sinful thing.

i spoiled myself and ate a lot. A LOT.

i had a dose of chocolate barSS, 2 cones of ube-mango-choocolate trio ice cream, 3 cones of caramel butterscotch, the super delicious sizzling pusit (my all-time favorite!) and lechon manok. well, i don't really need to be guilty cause it's the most beautiful day in the whole year. ^-^

i had my mom buy me all those. hahaha.

facts..

yeah, yeah.. so here it goes.. me, myself and i. the revelation. dandan! boogsh!
i was thinking of revealing more of myself to you mr. stranger. why? i don't know. ^-^

• this might sound very strange, but i love it when i am all alone in my room. don't think of something very nasty or ridiculous, okay? well, being alone in a place makes me feel safe. safe from the eyes of the people around me, safe from ghosts that might be lurking outside, safe from the noise that makes me feel disturbed. also, i can do a lot of essential things when i am with no one. for example, i can be really studious when left alone. i can manage to clean up my room if there is no other human person around.

• i have a stuffed toy named Eugene and we've been together for as long as i could remember. i super love him. he isn't the type you could see on bearhugs and all those fancy bears. he is super shaggy, got big ears, black eyes (without pupil), big nose, big paws and fat body. see, he ain't so majestic but i super love him. ^-^ by the way, i got his name from a character in ghost fighter. it was my favorite show back then. ^-^

• i love cats. ^-^ super adore them.

• take any material thing from me, but my phone. i am super attached to my phone. i don't text a lot, but 2 years is enough for me not to let go of my phone. ^-^ secrets and lies are embedded on it.

• i was very vulnerable when i was a little girl. i always get sick and meet accidents every now and then. i fell from the stairs, got 4 teeth pulled out of my mouth at the same time, got into troubles, boxed with a boy older than me, got my pinky finger so bloody from accidentally pulling a knife, harshly bitten by a ferocious, ugly dog, and a lot more. ^-^

• i never played with dolls. i am terrified by the very sight of them. It makes me remember of that horrifying character from the movie Child's play. I think of them as creatures from hell. Pretending to be very cuddly but then they would grab a knife and stab you to death. I wish i could burn all dolls on earth.

• i'm a papa's girl. he was my playmate, because i don't like playing with girls with all their dolls. we played with transformers, super mario and other boyish stuff. that's why i grew up having traits from my papa. he taught me everything about people, how to live, how to survive, how to be strong and how to be stone cold.